Lollipop Girls Struggle on the Hard Earth
Lollipop Girls Struggle on the Hard Earth is about the rupture that begins when
one becomes a subject in the symbolic order. It’s about trying to get something
back that we never had. It’s about the fundamental human desire to escape the
Real. In order to avoid the Real we attempt to make an Imaginary Self we can
pretend to believe in. When one becomes a subject, we regularly face an
awareness that what we hoped for isn’t there, so we add the symbolic to avoid
the lack in the center of our subjectivity. In this film, Madeline projects
herself into a spectacle that resembles her youthful conception of what being
an adult would be like. Eventually, Madeline comes face to face with the Real.
It has met her there.
My first love
is difficult for me to fathom, even thirty years later. It felt like going
home. The innocence, ease and completeness helped it take years to get over
even though the relationship was brief. I just couldn’t accept that he could
love me and then suddenly, not.
sprung in part from having idolized an uncle who then died at eighteen years
old. I’d been too young to understand death. Nowadays, with a Real love that
includes both average misery and also a sense of completeness, I’m looking back
at love. Inspired by the perfect, terrible luck at ever having loved completely
- much less three times.
Nº5 with Toby Altrabulsi
Advertisement for Chanel,
Inspired by Adolph de Meyer’s 1930’s photographic ads for Elizabeth Arden. The
score is by Vangelis from a well-known Chanel No5 commercial from the 80’s, “Share
the Fantasy”, directed by Ridley Scott. Additional work from this series in
This project is supported in part by
the Cultural Arts Division of the City of Austin Economic Development Department